Solitude is the crucible in which transformation can occur. The noise of the quest for external validation made the connection too superficial. The bond was fragile and conditional. No time for real introspection. Not even a prod in that direction. No partnership in the quest. So, now I recalibrate. No exhausting competition any longer. No struggle for control. I lived and arrived there at a very different energy level. I felt it was too potent so I dumbed it down and thus lost the magnetism and purity of it. It was misaligned. A distraction that derailed it into something transactional and superficial. Competition instead of compliment. No inspiration. No elevation. My clarity became clouded. Now I crave this period of regrowth. My new found isolation will serve as a filter, a form of protection, a sacred boundary. My journey was misunderstood. My sacred trust broken. I need a refinement of my connection with self. To walk my unique path. I need to confront the shadows and heal from the barrier to my growth. Rebuild my foundation. Regain my immense focus that became so scattered and diluted. I will find connections not fleeting and superficial, that transcend the ordinary. That share the inner work, face the fears, understand the sacredness of trust. Mutual purpose was absent. Vulnerability non existent. Instability the norm. To regain the compassion of reflective meditation. Fill the emptiness with possibility. Locate my lost intuition and self trust. Feel freer, lighter, more aligned. My old sense of peace instead of competition and control. A solid foundation of authenticity for the remaining journey.